officially radioactive!
I’ve been having routine PET scans since I was first diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer (metastasis to liver) back in May 2008. At first they were every six months, but then once I became a member of the 5 Year Club they were reduced to once a year. And every time I’ve been scared witless, fearing I’d hear the worst after my scan. I am very fortunate that my friend Isabel is the head of Nuclear Medicine at my hospital, so she always has a look at my scan while I’m there and gives me the results on the spot. She’ll call me into the PET area and say “all normal, nothing to worry about” and then send me on my way, not quite believing my good fortune.
But today after my scan Isabel called me into a private office and asked me to sit down.
And well, it’s kind of good news / bad news. The good news is that my liver is clean, no signs of anything nasty going on there. The bad (or potentially bad) news is that the “area of inflammation” that has been showing up on my PET scans since 2008 has increased dramatically. Over the years this area has been constantly shrinking, with each PET scan showing it a bit smaller and, as long as it kept shrinking, it was always considered a result of scar tissue. Today Isabel told me that it is back to the size it originally was back in 2008. And so now I will have to undergo more tests – CAT scan, ultrasound, colonoscopy – to (hopefully!) rule out cancer. In theory it could be an inflammatory infection, complications due to the adhesions, or any other number of non-cancer-related issues. Or it could be cancer. And so, Isabel has taken steps to get me an appointment with Oncology asap so they can start the extra testing.
I’m annoyed that they didn’t take me seriously at Emergency when I went there complaining about the abdominal pain back in November (exactly two months ago today). My GP also blew me off when I went to ask him about it afterwards, saying I just had gas and should take a pain killer. And even when I saw an oncologist at the beginning of January, she was totally dismissive about my complaints (you need to lose weight, I’m sure it’s just gas), and reluctantly booked my next PET scan.
The good thing is that now Isabel is setting the wheels in motion for me to get the appropriate extra testing done and, more importantly, to have me taken seriously by these other doctors. Meanwhile I am fluctuating between absolute terror and total denial. How’s your day going?
I really hope you’re okay.
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I hope you don’t have to wait too long for the tests. It must be terrifying but as you say, there’s lots of things it could be. Fingers crossed it’s just an infection xx
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Oh Shawn, sweetie, you must be terrified! Speaking from experience, even though intellectually you are going with the logical and sane best case, the old boogie brain slyly adds in all the worry and fear that is oh, so familiar to us cancer veterans.
I have everything crossed for you, and please keep me informed xx
X Ann
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Relying on WINE THERAPY at the moment. What the hell… apparently my liver is just fine.
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When there is nothing else, wine therapy is Dr. Sled’s prescription. Damn, I have been off the radar for a couple of days and this happens. Now I am pouring some wine. How soon do you go in for the rest of the tests so I can beam my best thoughts in your direction? Also, CAT THERAPY. Hoping this is a job for the CO2 laser killing adhesions.
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You will be in my constant thoughts. Hoping for the absolute best for you.
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Sigh… What the Hell is wrong with half the doctors/“experts”? Especially when they are dealing with people with a history of cancer and who kniw when something is wrong?
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Wishing you the best, Shawn.
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Well , crap. How scary for you. Will hope for good news here very soon.
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Ate your doctor’s Spanish? Do your communications all happen in Spanish? Are you an ex-pat? Does all of these treatment and testing work out OK financially? Is there somewhere for you to seek a second opinion?
Oh man, I hope you’re OK. Sorry you’re having to go through this. Go wine therapy!!! Be careful though … Don’t get the wine flu!
As for me … In the process of interviewing for a new position.
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I’m a permanent resident in Spain, so all medical treatment is covered. Yes, it all takes place in Spanish. And although I’m fluent I find that when I get stressed in the doctor’s office suddenly all my Spanish goes out the window. My friend Cinta is coming with me to the oncologist on Thursday to back me up.
Hey, good luck with the new position!
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Hopefully there is nothing serious going on. Meanwhile if the wine therapy helps, go for it.
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Thank god you’ve got a competent and respected advocate in the medical system. I think there should be a sign over a doctor’s doorway that indicates how many people they’ve told “it’s all in your head” that day, and which gender those people were. We’d see doctors taking some complaints a LOT more seriously, very quickly.
Fingers crossed for you. You’re proactive, you’re vigilant, and you’ve got backup. You couldn’t be better prepared for the news, whatever it may be.
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I used to have a team of 4 amazing doctors on Team Shawn, but due to illness and retirement, I am left with just the one. But so totally grateful to have her. I swear I wouldn’t have survived the first round without the original team. At the moment just really hoping there won’t be a second round and that the inflammation turns out to be something other than more cancer. xx
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