Just wanted to say muchísimas gracias to all of you for your support. And an extra hug for those who are helping out with donations – you’ve really helped ease some of the extra stress, especially now that it looks like I’m going to be off work most of the summer …
I’ll be starting back with my classes on Monday in an attempt to at least make up the three weeks of classes I owe my students for May, as they were paid for in advance. And Nog has kindly agreed to help me by teaching my morning classes so that I’ll only have to do the afternoon ones. Phew!
For the past week I’ve been getting out for a walk every day. Well, more of a shuffle than a walk, but sometimes I’m out for a couple of hours or more. I’m still feeling a bit fragile and have a tendency to suddenly have to lie down now! but I am certainly making progress.
Well, except that since my appointment with the oncologist last Tuesday I seem to have lost my new found sense of serenity and worldly wisdom (from the ‘every day is a gift’ hospital epiphany) and have instead morphed into an emotional rollercoastering lunatic. I blame being thrown back into limbo for another couple of weeks after I thought I was about to get some real answers about my condition. Ah well, this too shall pass. But I’m telling ya, if one more person tells me to think positive and assures me that everything’s gonna be alright and that I just have to take it one day at a time I refuse to take responsibility for my actions. 😉
To wit, I am still not up to having visitors (except for Pipocas) and often don’t even answer the phone. It always ends up being the same conversation and I’m left feeling exhausted after ‘reliving’ it all again. Light and fluffy distraction is what I crave these days. I think I’m going to make a rule for my students next week that we can talk about anything but the operation and its aftermath.
Oops, time for another nap. Maybe I’m turning into a cat?
Thanks again, everyone! 🙂
casa azahar 
I hope the nurse’s visit will invigorate you, az. That is, if she’s still coming?
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“light and fluffy distraction”? oh, i think we can help with that! nursemyra and i are just what the doctor ordered! bring on the dancing boys, in gold loincloths! let there be gallons of wine, ridiculous quantities of silliness and perhaps we can coax you to join us for a ‘corset’ shot!
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Yes, ian, nursemyra will be here the week after next and daisyfae will arrive the week after that.
Really looking forward to it. 🙂
Join you for a corset shot, daisy? Are you nuts?
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Listen – you can threaten as much as you like – I’m a safe distance away 😉 But you’ve had all that advice and don’t need it again, I’m sure.
Daisy may well be nuts – but you asked for distraction – and anything that is free (or at least cheap) and good for a laugh has got to be worth considering! And no that doesn’t make me a perv – it just means, you always come across as full of life, so maybe while you are a bit down is the time to take some energy from wherever you can get it!
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light and fluffy distraction? ok, think I can do that. I draw the line at making balloon animals though
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um…. (shuffling feet, looking at the ground)…. i happen to know how to make balloon animals. i can juggle too. theater training and all…
but i absolutely HATE clowns. won’t wear the greasepaint! promise!
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I think I need some educating about this corset shot thing. Is it possible to do a “corset shot” while juggling?
The imagination: it runs wild.
I’m clearing my calendar for the end of June.
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Okay, I won’t say anything encouraging except to point out that the healing process is exhausting and napping is a good thing. I read an article several years ago written by a woman who was suffering from chronic fatigue syndrome and fibromyalgia. After she tried and tried to make herself able to function, she finally just gave up. She had a good friend who offered her refuge, and she spent approximately six months doing nothing but rest. Either in her bed, or on a chaise lounge in the shade in her friend’s garden. Ultimately, her program of resting resulted in full recovery from both conditions. So don’t underestimate the power of rest, you need it.
I wish I could be there for the loin cloth clad dancing boys and the balloon animals. I will have to content myself with imagining the party, and posting virtual walks in my gardens for your relaxation pleasure. Hope you make it by for a visit, The Havens is really looking good this summer.
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“don’t underestimate the power of rest”
What’s curious is that I’ve never taken naps before, but since the op and paying more attention to what my body needs, I am now listening when I get the sudden urge to lie down for awhile. Sometimes I sleep, other times I read, but I always get up feeling much better and stronger. I wouldn’t want to spend 6 months doing this, but I think that for now it’s quite important.
I’ve also started riding The Bike while I’m watching tv in the mornings – a gentle half hour just to get the blood flowing a bit. Feels good.
A corset shot with balloon animals and juggling! Hmmm … maybe I could show off my scar?
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Please do get rest, in whatever form! After I got home, I used to need a lie-down, but I always felt so *guilty* about taking one. Like I should be up and about and recovering…hup, two, three, four…
Listen to what feels good.
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