Since arriving in Málaga it’s been a crazy social whirlwind, meeting up with friends who live here and also with friends who have come to visit me while I’m here. Loads of fun, but also quite expensive what with eating out all the time, and even once at a Michelin star restaurant. Still, I didn’t care because – dammit – this is my first holiday in over 20 years and I just wanted to do whatever I wanted.

But all too fast the first week was over and when I moved into the most perfect holiday apartment ever I suddenly felt like I didn’t want to leave. Which was when I started thinking about extending my holiday by an extra week. I mean, there’s no tapas tour work for me in Sevilla at the moment and I can get on with my other work projects on the laptop from here if I have a good wifi connection. Unfortunately this most lovely apartment I’m at now is booked next week, so I had a look around. And it looks like I may have another good option.

But the question is … do I really want/need to do this? One extra week will end up costing almost as much the first two weeks did since I spent the first week at Manolo’s and just chipped in for the electricity I used. Also, since my friends have mostly gone on their own holidays now perhaps it would be better to go home on Sunday after all the Fun & Friends. Because maybe another week here mostly on my own will feel like a bit of a let down after all the Fun. On the other hand, it might be the week on my own I actually need before getting back into stuff at home.

So… better to leave myself wanting more than spend another week and whacks of money and perhaps end up wondering why I’m still here? Or better to follow my gut about not feeling ready to go home yet? Because it does feel like there is some kind of “unfinished business” here – whether it’s to do with being in Málaga or just being on my own awhile longer I don’t know. I could also go home on Sunday and wait to see if another holiday opportunity presents itself over the next few weeks, but I don’t think another holiday is what I need…

Really not sure what to do.