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Am considering not doing any tapas tours in July (August is already booked off – way too hot!). I can’t actually afford to do this but as I’m also not going on holiday my (somewhat warped) logic is that the money I’m not spending on a holiday I also can’t afford might help pay for a two-month staycation.
Well almost two months. I have a couple of tours booked early July, but I’ve been thinking… what if I had (almost) two months to just focus on other things? I’ve been dithering about The Next Step(s) ever since I realised I needed to diversify and not just rely on the tapas tours for income, but it feels like I’ve been pivoting so long I’m really just going around in circles. So maybe a reboot would help?
I’ve never been a “go on holidays” type of person anyhow, short getaways are more my style. Mostly due to finances but also because I don’t really enjoy being away from home for a long time. I love where I live and enjoy my day to day life. But I’ve also never had an extended period of time to just… BE (well other than when sick with cancer and during covid lockdown, which don’t really count).
I mean, I’d still keep up with my websites, visit tapas bars, and visit all you guys here. I just think it would be nice to feel like I didn’t have to do something, or be somewhere, on a schedule. Feeling more relaxed just thinking about it. What are you doing this summer?
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Sometimes you really need time to regroup, when you don’t have to put on your “people face” and perform. I now have a pretty small clientele, and several have taken off somewhere cooler for a few weeks or otherwise checked out temporarily and it’s giving me empty days right when I needed them. I kind of scowl when I look at the bank deposits, but it IS something a person needs. Otherwise you use up all your energy putting one foot in front of the other and there’s not enough left over to make changes.
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This actually came about because, due to this and that, this ended up being an empty week (after a frenetic couple of weeks) and it just felt soooo good to not have to be anywhere or do anything. I thought… hey I could use more of this feeling.
Though of course now I am feeling pressure to MAKE CHANGES while I’m off work… to justify this. Need to reboot that one too I think.
I’ve got a lot on my plate with health issues (physical and emotional), work and money concerns, future plans. I just feel like I could be doing things much better, that I’m always letting myself down and then everything gets all muddled so I end up frozen standing still (when I’m not running on the spot getting nowhere).
So the idea is to focus on things this summer break that feel good to me AS ME, not as the me I’m supposed to be. I know that sounds a bit flaky but (so far) that’s as far as I’ve got. xx
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That’s good too.
I mean, we are here to live. As best we can. And sometimes that means just saying no to do this do that in all its forms.
Anyway “changes” doesn’t have to mean some gerat overarching reform. Two days ago I dropped something while trying to work at my kitchen counter for the nth time and said “gee you know what? The way I have this counter arranged is making me drop things” and took the time to rearrange stuff because I could. And every time I work there now I’m happier. Just… living without having to defer stuff because TIME.
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