It’s just that this London job STILL hasn’t paid me and that whole trip has been sitting on my credit card since last September, along with several grocery bill payments and other expenses, I’ve only got two English classes a week and haven’t been able to find enough work for Nog (he doesn’t try to find work for himself), my landlord is angry about late rent payments and told me today he’s going to start charging me for “my portion” of painting the roof which I can’t afford, I’m still working flat out and not making enough to make ends meet, I barely sleep anymore and then wake up feeling exhausted and afraid, I think Azar is getting sick, I worry that I’m getting sick with cancer again, I’m so scared of going back on chemo, I’m still fat even though I keep going to the gym, I feel like I should be doing more, that I’m letting myself down, that everything is unravelling and falling apart…

How’s your day going?