Well, it’s Day 4 and I’ve only got lorazepan left (anti-nausea drugs all gone) so I reckon I’ll take all three today. I didn’t take the midday lorazepan this time round on days 1-3 because they made me tooooo floppy last time.
It’s a nice sleepy day here in Sevilla too, Silverstar. After a gorgeous sunshiny week it’s supposed to rain all day, which is fine by me. It’s about 7am right now, the sun isn’t quite up, and I’m feeling extra cosy here in bed with the gatitos and listening to a gentle morning rain falling.
Something has really “clicked” since having to start treatment again. I’m suddenly not as afraid as before, even though my 50/50 prognosis isn’t actuallly any better. I think the fact that, thanks to Dr Ana, the treatment is (so far) much more manageable than it was last summer has helped. Though I know the side effects will get worse after each session (thinking about you Jed!) … and all this for just an extra 5% chance of still being alive in four years time. But somehow I feel less “helpless”, which I’m sure is due to feeling less sick on the meds.
I’m sure I’ll still have days when I bottom out, but I’ll also have times like now when I’m curled up in bed with the boys, listening to the dawn chorus (who don’t seem to mind the rain at all) and just thinking that there is absolutely nothing wrong with this moment. Well, unless I try to roll over and the port stitches say “oh no you don’t!” (it’s always something! 😉 ).
Kosy Kats indeed, Mudhooks. After I took that photo I snuggled in between them, which felt very cosy, though it didn’t look nearly as cute as this. But we’re working on it. 🙂
Boy, there should be an Olympic Synchronized Sleeping contest. Those guys are well on their way to a medal! I had a couple of calico sisters who slept synchronically in a singularly excellent manner. Your picture made me flash right back to a memory of them together.
Glad you seem to be doing so much better. Maybe the fact that you feel like you are more in command, doing something pro-active to fight the dis-ease is also helping your outlook. Not being sick as a dog has got to help too.
I have come back to this post about five times and every time I get so hypnotized by looking at the adorable guys that I forget to comment about how adorable they are.
I’ll join you, it’s a sleepy day in Seattle.
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Kozy Kats…
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Well, it’s Day 4 and I’ve only got lorazepan left (anti-nausea drugs all gone) so I reckon I’ll take all three today. I didn’t take the midday lorazepan this time round on days 1-3 because they made me tooooo floppy last time.
It’s a nice sleepy day here in Sevilla too, Silverstar. After a gorgeous sunshiny week it’s supposed to rain all day, which is fine by me. It’s about 7am right now, the sun isn’t quite up, and I’m feeling extra cosy here in bed with the gatitos and listening to a gentle morning rain falling.
Something has really “clicked” since having to start treatment again. I’m suddenly not as afraid as before, even though my 50/50 prognosis isn’t actuallly any better. I think the fact that, thanks to Dr Ana, the treatment is (so far) much more manageable than it was last summer has helped. Though I know the side effects will get worse after each session (thinking about you Jed!) … and all this for just an extra 5% chance of still being alive in four years time. But somehow I feel less “helpless”, which I’m sure is due to feeling less sick on the meds.
I’m sure I’ll still have days when I bottom out, but I’ll also have times like now when I’m curled up in bed with the boys, listening to the dawn chorus (who don’t seem to mind the rain at all) and just thinking that there is absolutely nothing wrong with this moment. Well, unless I try to roll over and the port stitches say “oh no you don’t!” (it’s always something! 😉 ).
Kosy Kats indeed, Mudhooks. After I took that photo I snuggled in between them, which felt very cosy, though it didn’t look nearly as cute as this. But we’re working on it. 🙂
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Boy, there should be an Olympic Synchronized Sleeping contest. Those guys are well on their way to a medal! I had a couple of calico sisters who slept synchronically in a singularly excellent manner. Your picture made me flash right back to a memory of them together.
Glad you seem to be doing so much better. Maybe the fact that you feel like you are more in command, doing something pro-active to fight the dis-ease is also helping your outlook. Not being sick as a dog has got to help too.
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I have come back to this post about five times and every time I get so hypnotized by looking at the adorable guys that I forget to comment about how adorable they are.
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love the cat photo
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They look like quote marks.
Glad the anti-yucky meds are working. Sleep is a wonderful thing… 🙂
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love the photo. how perfect.
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