I really really hate doing this, but …

I think I may have jinxed things by writing that cosmic accounting post because there haven’t been any donations since the beginning of October and I’m starting to get worried.  I’ve been trying to keep a month ahead just in case there is some unforeseen financial emergency**, so I will probably be okay for December and maybe January’s rent, but that’s  gonna clean me out.  I really have been living frugally – those trips and lunches out are very generous gifts from my friends here.  And I haven’t been buying anything that isn’t for ‘immediate consumption’ – other than a woolly cardie I got when I went to M&S  I’m making all my clothes and shoes last another year, and I’m okay about not doing anything special for Christmas.  So I can’t think of any other ways of cutting back and it’s scary to feel so vulnerable. Also, Nog might be going back to Wales soon.  It’s not definite but he’s not making much of a living here by teaching and I don’t think his heart is really in it.  He may stay until the summer or he might leave next month – another up-in-the-air scenario that’s making things quite difficult at the moment.

Anyhow, it isn’t my intention to put any of you on the spot because I know that many people are being affected by the recession, or generally just don’t have much extra themselves.  And I do know that I’m going to have to find a way of supporting myself by working from home, especially with Nog leaving,  since it looks like I’m going to be stuck here for awhile yet with surgery recovery and chemo.  I should be able to start planning future stuff better once I get the biopsy report and find out what the next treatment is going to be.

Meanwhile, every little bit will help. Thanks.

[update: ** such as … washing machine breaking!]