Category Archives: friends

back to hospital…

19 Wednesday Nov 2008

Posted by in cancer, friends, hospitals

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hospital-outside

Are you getting bored yet?

Tedium has taken over from terror, which is maybe a good thing.  I’m checking into hospital again today, feeling sad about the week to come because I am surely not about to get another perfect roommate like I did the other day. I also had a nice room. Ah well, for the next couple of days I will be too out of it to notice (much). And then it’ll be the weekend, which has a different rhythm than weekdays … and they try to discharge as many patients as possible before the weekend so I might end up having the room to myself.

It also feels different checking in on a Wednesday, unlike the last two times when I checked in on a Sunday. In some ways it’s better because I always find Sundays a bit depressing somehow. But today is ‘just another day’, you know? And I’ll be going to the hospital with Pipocas this time, so that Nog doesn’t have to cancel his afternoon/evening classes.  He’d already cancelled all of his Monday classes (for nuthin) and now has had to cancel tomorrow’s, which is very bad for him financially.  Anyhow, he’ll come to the hospital when he’s finished and, as usual, spend the first night with me.

I’m pretty much still packed from the other day, so there’s not much left to do.  *sigh*

a “me-me” about you

18 Tuesday Nov 2008

Posted by in blogging, friends, me-me's

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pen

Hey, I was sure that I’d posted this on Friday … no wonder nobody responded!

The rules:

1. List the last ten people who have commented on your blog
2. If you’re on my list then you should do the meme on your blog too

This was my list of commentators at 12.00 today [well, last Friday].

  1. Linda / Beatrice
  2. Nag on the Lake
  3. Silverstar
  4. spacecadette
  5. B’elana
  6. DKL
  7. Beth
  8. Blues Shark
  9. Anneke
  10. healingmagichands

Now for the questions . . .

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operation: postponed!

17 Monday Nov 2008

Posted by in cancer, friends, home, hospitals, rants, wtf?

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operation

I mean, is this some sort of game … or what ?

Right after I published that last post a couple of doctors came into my room and said, “Oh, hasn’t anyone told you yet?” Turns out they had an emergency liver transplant this morning and so today’s scheduled ops have been postponed until Thursday. Which means on Wednesday evening I’m going to go through this whole damn rigamarole again. Gaaaaa!

My main regret is that I know I’ll never find such a perfect roommate as María … and I’m sure she won’t be too happy to wake up with some TV-watching señora in the next bed.  Anyhow, I left her a note and a link to my tapa blog, so maybe I’ll hear from her again.

Back home now enjoying some coffee & digestive biscuits.

Here are a couple of check-in evening photos…

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waiting…

17 Monday Nov 2008

Posted by in cancer, friends, health & happiness, hospitals

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waiting

So there’s not much to do but wait.

Nog left awhile ago to go home and shower, snibble the cats and make some sandwiches for later – he should be back in a couple of hours. My roommate María went off to have her operation done about an hour ago. I sure hope we both end up back in the same room after we’re done as we really are a hospital match made in heaven. I heard her talking to someone on her mobile last night, saying how lucky she was to have me as a roommate. She’s happy with her iPod and book and, thanks to Pipocas, I have internet here so I can happily while away the hours online or reading.

I’m feeling a lot more relaxed today, possibly due to having slept very well.  I should get the name of the sleeping pills they gave us last night. María was already asleep when the nurse came and so he had to wake her up so she could take her sleeping pill (duh). Anyhow, I woke up feeling very well rested and saw Nog, who was still fast asleep in the reclining chair beside me.

The Team came to visit me first thing this morning and said that, as I’m up second, this could happen any time after 11am, even though I’m scheduled for 3pm. The sooner the better. I don’t mind not being able to eat (last meal was lunch yesterday) but I also can’t drink any water, which is hard for me. I usually drink 2-3 litres a day. Also, the smell of coffee wafting in from the food trolley is making me drool. Ah well…

Time for some scrabble, I think.

It’s very nice knowing you guys are out there, wishing me well. 🙂

hospital check in…

16 Sunday Nov 2008

Posted by in cancer, friends, hospitals, life stuff

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Checking in this afternoon around 6 pm.

Unlike the last time I won’t be bringing all my stuff at once. I had shown up with everything I’d packed for the week (mobile phone, iPod, camera, laptop, DVDs, books, travel scrabble game, notebook, pens, toiletries, bottled water, dressing gown, slippers…) only to be told that, depending on how long I spent in the ICU, I might be moved to another room afterwards. So Nog had to drag everything with him to the waiting room. As it turned out, they didn’t complete the operation and I didn’t spend any time in the ICU, but I’m hoping for better results this time. And so today I think I’ll just bring a book and travel scrabble. Nog can bring the other stuff on Tuesday, once I’m settled into a definite room for the week.

If anything I’m even more scared than last time. I’ve tried to be reasonable and logical about it, but I’m just terrified about leaving my home today and never coming back. I was lying in bed this morning with Azar in my arms and tears streaming down my cheeks, thinking it might be our last cuddle together. He always comes for a cuddle just before I go to sleep and after I wake up. No matter how I try to distract myself, my mind keeps going to dark places. It’s pretty awful.

I think it’s going to be a long day …