14 Sunday Sep 2008
Posted in quizzes
This seemed like an appropriate quiz for today …
| Your Nail Polish Colour is Red |
How you’re unique: You have an incredible eye for style and art. Why your style rocks: You are classic and classy – and that’s hot! What this colour says about you: “I’m smart, sassy, and sexy. And I know it.” |
Apparently ‘popcorn’ isn’t one of the colour options.
But I do always paint my toenails red.
13 Saturday Sep 2008
Posted in cancer, health & happiness
Yeah I know, it ain’t exactly nursemyra, but I thought some of you might like to see The Scar and I didn’t want too much of my belly showing, so it had to be a ‘lingerie shot’ with my trusty dressing gown. My left hand is covering up a couple inches of the scar at the bottom, but you get the general idea. It’s BIG. And the next one will be about the same size except horizontal and J-shaped, below my right ribs.
Oh, and check out them fingernails! 😉
12 Friday Sep 2008
Posted in cancer, friends, health & happiness, life stuff
Over the past couple of months there has been a tendency for people to either avoid talking to me about their problems, or else they stop themselves in mid-whinge and apologise because my problems are clearly so much more serious than theirs.
I honestly don’t see it that way. And when people handle me with kid gloves it makes me feel like there’s something wrong with me. Well, I mean, other than the obvious (the cancer, not personal weirdness 
). It creates a barrier somehow. As if, just because I have a serious health problem, I have lost my ability to sympathise and, more importantly, empathise with others. Which is not the case at all.
It’s lonely enough at times, being here and dealing with the chemo and my fears and all that. So I just want to say that it feels good when people treat me like I’m still a ‘whole person’ because it makes me feel like I still belong and that I haven’t been separated and confined to some isolated place surrounded by eggshells.
I know this is done out of thoughtfulness and caring, but if you really do care about me then you’ll let me still care about you too … okay? If I’m ever feeling overwhelmed and unable to listen properly then I’ll let you know. Deal? 
11 Thursday Sep 2008
Posted in cancer, health & happiness, hospitals
. . . on Monday 22 September
A couple of nights ago I got a call from Isabel (one of The Team) asking me if I had a date for the liver resection, and I told her nobody had called me yet. She said she thought that was strange because when they had spoken to the head of surgery on my behalf the week before they were told the surgery was going to be ‘very soon’ and Isabel thought this meant it would be this coming Monday, the 15th.
All of a sudden I panicked because, although I have really enjoyed and appreciated these past chemo-free ten days, it just seemed too soon to go back into hospital. I didn’t feel ready for it. So I told Isabel that I really hoped it would be scheduled for the 22nd and she said she’d call them again and get back to me. Which she did yesterday morning and I was very relieved when she told me the date (and I wondered if she had anything to do with it). In any case, I reckon the infected wrist would have kept me from having surgery this Monday, but I am pleased to have another ten days of ‘holidays’.
Unlike last time I can prepare for this operation, both emotionally and practically. The practical stuff is obviously easier; for example I’m going to get my hair cut quite short next week so it’s less hassle, plus I’m making a list of all the things I know I’ll want and need while I’m there (about 2 weeks, I’ve been told). The emotional stuff is going to require more work, though Nog has said he’ll stay with me the first night (I’ll be ‘checking in’ the evening before the op) which will help a lot. I can imagine us still up and playing scrabble at 3 in the morning …
Any other ideas for ’emotional prep’?
09 Tuesday Sep 2008
Posted in animals & pets, gaaaaa!!!
Normally Sunny is the best-behaved boy at the vet’s.
But not today. Some of you may recall when Sunny had his annual checkup last year and I was told that he had to start taking new meds for his kidneys. I was also told that he should have another blood test in six month’s time to check that his kidneys were still functioning well, but of course stuff like my emergency op and then starting chemo got in the way. And so I decided to make sure he got in for a checkup before I went in for the liver op. . .
casa azahar 