The heart of my heart, the love of my life, the… well, you get the picture. This is the most beloved little being I’ve ever known. He owns my heart and has taught me to be a good and caring person. And he’s dying. Yes, mostly of old age but now sooner due to idiot vet giving him his first vaccination at age 15 in a place that was sure to give him a malignant sarcoma. And it did. The tumour has almost doubled in size in the past few weeks. And Azar spends more and more time alone, avoiding everyone, except at night when he still comes up onto my bed to cuddle and even sleep on my head. I can’t stand it guys.
I feel like I’m losing him fast and… I can’t stand it.
casa azahar 
I hope it’s a peaceful ending because he has filled all our lives with such joy. A magnificent cat, truly magnificent.
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Heartbreaking and nothing anyone says can make it better. Take care.
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Shawn, so sorry. Have been there myself. x
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Oh, that is so, so hard. I’ll be thinking of you and of your sweet Azar.
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I’m so sorry 😦
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So sorry, Az. He has given you so much love and you’ve given him a life he’d never have had had he not gotten that terrible injury.
He’s been a very lucky boy and you’ve been a very lucky girl.
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Thanks everyone. I don’t know if I’m kidding myself that he may still have some good quality time left and so may still be around a good while. It just seems like every day there is a little less of him. His joy of all the little things… I don’t see it so much anymore. But he still loves to cuddle, and still loves a good snibble. Off to do that right now. xx
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The thing is that you are with him every step of the way, however long it takes. That’s what matters. Be brave, you know there’s a lot of love around you. Xxx
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He’s beautiful. I’m sorry.
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Aww, he’s such a beautiful cat. I’m so sorry that he’s dying 😦 That’s absolutely awful. At least he’s at home and can pass on in a comfortable place where he knows he’s loved. I’m sure he appreciates everything you’ve done for him.
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Virtual hugs and snibbles to you and beautiful Azar.
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I think I’ve said before, my mum said she just knew when it was time for her dog. I really believe that you’ll know in your heart when it’s time for Azar to go, and you won’t kid yourself out of that knowledge because you obviously love him too much to do that.
I’m so, so sorry though.
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I was just thinking that it might be time to add Luna and Loki to your “family portrait”. Let me know it you want me to do this.
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I love Azar because of you, and I feel sad and angry every time I think of how poorly the vet served you both. But it doesn’t come close to how glad I feel when I think of you saving him and how much you’ve loved each other. He is brave and good, and I think he’ll always be there on your pillow in some way.
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It’s sad to read that your beautiful lion is declining. I know how hard that is. On our front, old Delia is 20 now and skin and bones and somehow, inexplicably still a force in our household. Jerry, age unknown, is a senior now. He came to us a decade ago with FIV and a heart murmur among other problems. He’s slowed down quite a bit. Instead of roaming the hood, he hangs out on the porch and watches the world go by. Of course they are all our extended family.
Enjoy the moments you have with Azar to their fullest.
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