Waking up with one of these on your belly is… nice.
(makes it hard to get up though)
cosy boy
30 Tuesday Oct 2012
Posted in animals & pets, cats, home
Category Archives: cats
remembering to love
09 Tuesday Oct 2012
Posted in animals & pets, cats, change, death & dying, home, love
Remember Azar having a drink out of his special glass after brekky a couple of months ago? That was before things (literally) blew up with the tumour and it seemed like he’d still be around for a good while. He always took care to make sure he got lots to drink and for the past couple of years he’d had a few different drinking glasses, but this was his last one.
After he died it was so hard to let go of little things and so when it came time to either toss this glass or find a new use for it I decided to fill it up permenantly and leave it on the top shelf in the bathroom where I always used to keep it, waiting for Azar to come and ask for a drink.
Sometimes seeing it makes me sad, other times it makes me smile, but it always makes me remember how much I loved bringing him a drink and telling him what a clever boy he was. Nothing else I was doing would ever be more important and it was always good to stop and have those few precious moments. I think it’s good to be reminded of that.
cat grass part 4
03 Wednesday Oct 2012
Posted in animals & pets, cats, home
Somehow I never got around to planting cat grass at the new casa az. Well, it turns out that I not only have a new asparagus lover, but the Lunatic seems intent on getting her greens if I don’t make them readily available. Remember when I removed the “protective” mesh from the balconies because it just served to give her a foothold for climbing? It seemed after that she was content to just sit outside but about a month ago I looked up from my computer screen to see her doing a somewhat wobbly balancing act on the railing! Since then it became an obsession to climb up the squiggly bits on the railings, which was driving me to distraction, and then I realised it was to get at – and much on – the plants there. So I went out and got some cat grass seed and grew it upstairs on the terraza. Today I put it out for her and, as you can see, she loves it. Loki took a brief interest in it too, but it’s clear that Luna takes after Azar when it comes to wanting her veg. And so I hope that this is going to keep her from scaling the railings to get her daily fix. Fingers crossed!
cat grass part 2
cat grass part 3
grave matters
29 Saturday Sep 2012
Posted in cats, change, death & dying, home, hope, life stuff
When Azar died I said in another blog post that I finally understood why people want to believe in Heaven, and I also finally understood the concept of graves. Ever since I made the somewhat rash decision to bury Azar in a square near my house I realised that I actually took comfort in him still being “close to home” and that I can see the trees from my bedroom window and know that he is resting below them. I know it doesn’t make any sense, and I know it’s just his remains there, but I somehow need him to be nearby.
I actually waited almost two weeks before I revisited his grave, in case it had been disturbed, because I didn’t know what I’d do if Azar was no longer there. But I found it just as we’d left it, and since then I’ve wandered by many times and stop to say a few words.
My most beautiful boy.
comfort cats
27 Thursday Sep 2012
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Ever since Azar died the two young’uns have a new post-breakfast routine – they now come up onto my bed for a cuddle and a snooze. Well, by that I mean they let me cuddle them. Azar used to come back to bed after brekky, snuggle right up to me and DEMAND a cuddle. Well, poco á poco. I’m still waiting for those two to start sleeping with me. My bed is just way too big and lonely…
