Category Archives: health & happiness

small & perfect

31 Sunday May 2009

Posted by in food & drink, health & happiness

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spinach rollup

I haven’t had much appetite lately. Or better to say that I do get hungry but find I can’t eat that much, so I’ve been doing more snacking than making proper meals. Yesterday I decided that if I am going to be eating less (which is a good thing – would love to lose some weight) then as much as possible I’d like my snacks to be “small & perfect”.

This is what I came up with last night. A garlicky spinach & pinenut rollup with cheese. I’m quite into flour tortillas these days because they add a bit of substance without being too heavy. Honestly, after every meal, no matter how light it is, I end up having to go lie down for awhile. As if even eating tires me out.

If you have any good ideas for smallish & light (and really delicious) snacky meals, please send them along …

day ten

24 Sunday May 2009

Posted by in cancer, chemo, fitness, food & drink, friends, health & happiness, home, hope, tapas

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sun_clouds

It’s day ten after the last infusion and the sun is starting to shine again. Well, in terms of how I feel – it’s actually been nice and sunny here for ages. But it’s around this time of the chemo cycle that I can start drinking cool beverages again, take stuff out of the fridge without it hurting my fingers, and stop feeling so bloody weak and bleh. I could tell it was different when I woke up yesterday morning … can’t really explain it, just that things felt less “heavy and bleak” and somehow less “wrong”.  What a relief!

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mute yoga

22 Friday May 2009

Posted by in health & happiness, yoga

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namaste

Dragged myself out of bed early this morning just for yoga and I’m really glad I did, especially as Ana the instructor dragged herself there even though she was ill … and couldn’t speak!  So we had a very unusual class today. I had suggested “yoga charades” but Ana opted for simply clapping her hands twice whenever were about to change positions so that we would know to to look up and see what she was doing next. It worked quite well but I missed her saying the little namaste thingy at the end …

Venero el lugar en ti en el cual reside el universo entero.
Venero el lugar en ti que es amor, verdad, luz y paz.
Cuando tú estás en ese lugar dentro de ti,
y yo estoy en ese lugar dentro de mí,
somos uno solo.

I honor the place in you in which the entire Universe dwells.
I honour the place in you which is of love, truth, light and peace.
When you are in that place inside you,
and I am in that place inside me,
we are one.

Beautiful, isn’t it?

time to get up already?

19 Tuesday May 2009

Posted by in cancer, chemo, health & happiness, home, naps, yoga

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sleeping_beauty

I have basically been sleeping since last Thursday afternoon when Flor dropped me off at home after the last infusion.  I always seem to be hit hardest by the chemo during the first five days so I think it’s good thing to just give in and do what my body is demanding. Which is to rest.

When I was on chemo last summer I always had five awful days when I was laid low with nausea and could barely move from bed. After the first two infusions this time (with new anti-nausea meds) I felt a bit tired the first five days but got by with a nap in the afternoon. Little did I know this was because of the dexametasona, which gave me an energy boost but really made me pay for it when I crashed a few days later. This time with only the anti-nausea meds I don’t have nausea but I also have no energy whatsoever. I’ve managed a short walk each day – and even made it to yoga yesterday! – but the days have been punctuated by no less than three 3-hour naps. And you know what? I just give in. Like I have a choice?

But today is day six and I plan to get up and stay up. Wish me luck!

 

xeloda

14 Thursday May 2009

Posted by in cancer, chemo, health & happiness, hospitals

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xelodaPossible side effects

Xeloda (aka capecitabine) is the oral chemo I take during the two weeks following my 2 1/2 hour chemo infusions (capecitabine plus oxaliplatin) at the hospital. Taken in the morning and in the evening. I have my iPhone set to remind me at 10am and 10pm to take my pills. And I really really really hate this stuff. I mean, check out the possible side effects. BUT, as long as I can handle it I’m going to continue. I’ve heard that the symptoms get worse as you go – last summer I just had three sessions so I didn’t get to the breaking point some people I know have reached.  And who knows, maybe I won’t because everyone responds differently to meds. But I gag every time I have to swallow these fuckers because I know they are doing terrible things to me. Let’s just hope they are also doing terrible things to the cancer cells so that going through all this ends up being worth it.

Round three of chemo today. Bleh.