Category Archives: life stuff

depressed

30 Tuesday Nov 2010

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I do sometimes wonder if it’s just a matter of time before I snap. Or maybe that’s what the cancer was all about, and now it’s about to come back. But the bottom line is that it’s just too much. After almost two years of ops and chemo and being off work I was finally getting to where I might start making enough money again to live on, and then I lose the roof over my head. And while I keep getting up every day and doing what I can, I really am not doing very well. I lie awake at night hugging cats and feeling like it’s all falling apart, that I’m slipping into the abyss and there is no way out anymore. It scares me. It bloody well scares the hell out of me.

more stress…

16 Tuesday Nov 2010

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So remember a week ago when I was feeling totally stressed, and one of the reasons for that was because my landlord was not only snitty about me being late with the rent (the first time in over 16 years!) but he also said I would have to pay a percentage of the recent roof painting, amounting to about 400 euros? Then he said “not to worry” as he would divide it up so that I’d “just” be paying an extra 30 euros a month.

Well, this 30 euro a month thing keeps coming up, and I think this is Pepe’s way of finally getting me to pay it. What happened was back when I took this flat, and was also allowed to keep on the one I had moved out of (across the hall), I had a sit down meeting with Pepe one morning to discuss all this. I explained that renting the rooms next door, if I provided bedding, dishes, etc, would be like having flatmates to help me pay my rent (which is what I did for eight long years) only they’d all be living next door. No problem. And then we agreed on a price for the apartment I’d be moving into, so I was pretty surprised when I got the contract for it a couple of weeks later and it was for 30 euros more than we had agreed upon…

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save the feeling

29 Wednesday Sep 2010

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A while ago I talked about longing for some Diana Porter Jewellery and it did cross my mind that I might drop into her shop in Bristol while I was there, but what I hadn’t imagined was that it would be a fast very last minute in-and-out visit and that I would actually end up buying something! (I blame Lizzie) What happened was that we were hanging out in Lizzie’s charming Folk House Café when she suggested I might want to take a walk along Park Street before we went to the train station. It turned out that Diana Porter’s shop was right across the street and so…

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busy

16 Thursday Sep 2010

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It’s no joke. I am suddenly so busy that I find myself running out of time each day. And I love it. I mean, I still have time to get my work done – or enough of it – but no longer have time to wonder about what to do next. The days are just filling themselves up, which is such a difference compared to the past couple of years. Now I just need to make it pay! Though I should get the first part of my SimonSeeks advance mid-October, and tapas tours are slowly booking up, so now just have to find a few students – for both me and Nog – and I’ll be in business. For real. Cool, eh?