23 Wednesday Jul 2008
Posted in cancer, friends, health & happiness, hospitals, life stuff
I think I’m getting better at this; started off with ‘doing my best’.
Yesterday was my second chemo session (it was supposed to be on Monday but it was rescheduled for Tuesday) and it went much better than the first one. Well, it helped that I knew more about what to expect so I could do some chemo planning beforehand, though I didn’t get everything right . . .
19 Saturday Jul 2008
Posted in cancer, friends, health & happiness, home, hospitals
I’m not at all a butterflies & flowers sort of optimist, nor am I a down-in-the-mouth pessimist. I’m pretty much a realist/optimist and I like being practical about things. And I always find honesty to be the best policy.
My first chemo session three weeks ago was very scary for me because I was still trying to get my head around the 50/50 prognosis and also Nog had just left town for a month. Plus, I had no idea what to expect or how I was going to react to the treatment. This time I feel better prepared . . .
13 Sunday Jul 2008
Posted in cancer, friends, health & happiness, life stuff
10 Thursday Jul 2008
Posted in cancer, health & happiness, home, hospitals, progress
Or more like “Operation: Info”
Honestly, I’m always the last to know. I really thought yesterday’s appointment was to get the pre-op tests done for my upcoming liver surgery. Turns out it wasn’t that at all. Nor was I the only confused person…
08 Tuesday Jul 2008
Posted in cancer, friends, health & happiness, home, life stuff
I went to the supermarket with my friend (and new next door neighbour) ‘La J’ yesterday evening. As I was really missing Nog I thought about how strange it felt not to be there with him, about the countless times we’d been shopping at the supermarket together. Those little life routines.
And I was suddenly hit with the deepest sadness I’d ever known, far too deep for tears. Because I found myself wishing beyond reason, beyond hope, that I could ‘go back’ and have my old life back again. The one where I was healthy, before all this started. The one I had never appreciated enough.
I hope that you’re appreciating your today…
casa azahar 