Today’s Photohunter theme is “jiggly”.
Yep, “the girls” are jiggly, and so is my belly.
This is me showing off my first scar … I’ve had more since.
jiggly
16 Saturday Jan 2010
Category Archives: cancer
clean
13 Wednesday Jan 2010
This is very true…
But a clean PET scan is the best birthday present ever!
I have to admit that I’m still processing all this. As many of you know, I was pretty tied up in knots about this latest PET scan (my fourth). Partly due to the timing … my recurrence last March happened six months after finishing chemo, and this was also six months since I finished chemo for the second time in July. And partly because for the past few weeks I’ve been experiencing some pretty bad abdominal pain. I was half-convinced the cancer was back, and started beating myself up for not doing the whole “anti-cancer” antioxidant diet, for not losing weight and getting super-fit, for not … being perfect? I dunno. I just felt I could have done better and was sure I was now going to be “punished” for not having done so (those sicko Catholic upbringings take a lot of getting over). Anyhow, I was a mess. And so, when I hadn’t heard from the hospital about my PET scan appointment last week I started pestering The Team…
christmas tapas
05 Tuesday Jan 2010
Posted in cancer, christmas, food & drink, friends, tapas
hope revisited
03 Sunday Jan 2010
Made me smile when I changed the pages in my daybook last week and saw what I had used for my first ever Photohunt entry – the theme that week was “hope”. That was a year ago today. And so I have made a new one for next year.
At the time I had no idea that I would have a recurrence a few months later and end up spending much of 2009 being sick on chemo and then recovering from that. I still have pretty bad neuropathy in my feet, but the other day Nog asked me how the “chemo brain” was and I realised that I’m actually thinking – and functioning – a lot better these days. I’m able to focus more and keep things straight in my head. My memory is still crap, but I think it always was (heh, can’t remember). And so, there have been some improvements.
I’ve said elsewhere that my main hope for 2010 is that I’ll have a clean PET scan this month, that the abdominal pain I’ve been experiencing is due to the hernia and old scar tissue (not more cancer!). Well, really that I’ll have a cancer-free year. I have a few projects on the go that I hope will start bringing in some income soon. And I like to think of myself writing about this post next January 3rd.
What are you hoping for this year?
fast
19 Saturday Dec 2009
Posted in cancer, food & drink, hospitals, photohunt, photos
