low carb
07 Monday Sep 2009
Posted in food & drink, health & happiness, home
Category Archives: health & happiness
finding a new “normal”
30 Sunday Aug 2009
Posted in cancer, health & happiness, home, hope, life stuff, philosophy
Awhile ago I read this on the Colon Club forum and it really hit home.
“The problem right now is I go through such mixed feelings, and I get lonely because there is not anyone with whom to share them as I know very few people who have had cancer. I am tired of not “feeling” myself. I know things from here on out will never be quite the same. I have battled with this neuropathy for some time now and I battle with work and appointments. I need balance! I do take anti depressants but think talking to others will help me. Others know what it is like, this “lonely” feeling. Note: I am not suicidal and I am happy to be alive. I just need friends like me. Once you finish chemo, it’s like everyone forgets that anything is going on with you? Anyone else share my feelings?”
In fact, I was going to post this last March and then I found out about the recurrence and was suddenly back on chemo. Thing was, even six months after the first chemo I was still feeling not quite myself. I have since come to the conclusion that my pre-cancer self is gone for good. Not necessarily a bad thing, but it takes some getting used to…
back to the gym
28 Friday Aug 2009
Posted in cancer, change, fitness, health & happiness, hope, life stuff
So I finally got back to the gym yesterday, in part motivated by the fact that I’d paid the monthly fee for August and had so far only gone once. That was just after I got back from my week in Málaga and that same day I ended up putting my back out at the hospital. Grrr. And shortly after that I went to Zahara for ten days. If I’d known about the Zahara trip at the beginning of the month I probably would have asked the gym if I could skip a payment as I wasn’t going to be here. But after yesterday I’m glad I kept up the payments even if I only end up going a few times this month…
a good day
27 Thursday Aug 2009
Posted in health & happiness, home, hope
Tuesday was a kind of “transition” day after getting back from holidays, which also included dealing with the plumber till about 4pm. So yesterday it was time to get started organising my life again. As I had a rather long to-do list I decided to skip the gym and get out first thing in order to get as much done before it got too HOT (my gym membership is for mornings only 8.30-2.00). I also had to get back in time for three appointments to show the two available rooms next door, which were starting around 1 o’clock. It seemed like a typical busyish day and I certainly wasn’t expecting everything to turn out as well as it did…
holiday az
23 Sunday Aug 2009
This is my last full day of my holidays and I realised I haven’t posted even one holiday photo of me (other than my feet). So this is one that Nog took yesterday evening as we were sitting on the rooftop bar having cocktails and waiting to watch the sunset.
Nog got here yesterday morning and is going back to Seville later on today, and Agustín will be coming to pick me up tomorrow afternoon to take me home. It’s sure been an interesting ten days and I’ve had a really nice break, but I am quite looking forward to snibbling my boys tomorrow and also getting into my new routine. After all this time being sick I feel I’m more than ready to take my life back from cancer and start working on all the projects that have been on hold for so long.
Sure did love my holidays though. It’s the best August I’ve ever had!
Thanks again to everyone who made this summer of healing possible.
casa azahar 