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georgia

11 Tuesday Sep 2018

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Saw this on Instagram recently and, while I wouldn’t say NEVER, I can easily say HARDLY EVER. And just so y’all know… no, it’s not easy and, yes, I am always afraid. But I just keep doing. Because that’s all I know, to keep on doing. So maybe the next time you feel threatened by your imagined concept of me, and before you project your insecure shit onto me and decide I am somehow “too this or too that”… remember that I am actually terrified. All the time. EVERY WAKING MOMENT. And yet I keep getting up in the morning, and I keep on doing stuff in spite of all that. Then ask yourself how well you would do under the same circumstances. And think about it.

hope 2019

03 Wednesday Jan 2018

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Continuing the “tradition of hope” that began back in 2009 with my first ever Photohunt entry on January 3rd. The theme that week was “hope” and I put up a photo of my battered old daybook turned to January 3rd 2010 with the words “STILL HERE!” written on it. Having just finished a second stint of chemo a few months previously this felt like a very bold – and hopeful – thing to do.

Anyhow, since then I have posted a similar photo on this date each year. So, as always, here’s hoping that I will still be here January 3rd 2019, and will see this page in my book… and smile just like I did this morning.

blasts from the past

12 Saturday Aug 2017

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The other day I was wrapped up in all the IKEA nonsense, feeling abused by corporate bullshit, and then I happened to see that – once again! – one of the new corporate tapas tour companies in town had copied another of my tours. So I mentioned on Twitter how disheartening this is, to not only have people copy things I have created, but they even use the same bars FFS, as if nobody will notice that the bars no longer have actual clients in them, just food tour groups. As if bars don’t have their own eco-systems. Grrrrr…

Then the next day I got a mention on Twitter linking to this photo taken almost exactly 6 years ago (Sept 2011), with a great comment from Tim being very supportive. And I remember this tour! I almost didn’t do it because I was still getting over that emergency op but at that point I also really wanted to get out of the house. So I arranged it that I would meet them with Peter at the first stop, just to say hola, and that Peter would take it from there, since I didn’t think I could manage a whole evening out. But I actually made it to the second stop (this photo was taken at Bodeguita Romero) and I remember not only having a great time before leaving Tim and his friends in Peter’s capable hands, but also enjoying my first glass of wine in over a month.

Anyhow, what a great memory to be reminded of, and curiously this was my second “blast from the past” from 2011 this month, since Ross & Annie are also back in town. All of which is reminding me to enjoy what I have and embrace all the GOOD. Because sometimes I forget.

my 11th blogiversary

01 Monday May 2017

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Eleven years ago today…

I put up my first ever blog post with no idea at all that it would lead to meeting so many amazing people (and, to be honest, a few not-so-nice ones). It also got me through the worst of times during my cancer saga and, more positively, led to starting the Sevilla Tapas blog, and a new biz once I got back to work. Just like life it’s been a mix of the good, the bad and the whatever.  😉

I’m sure that by now you’ve realized this is now mostly an online daily scrapbook (a habit I started during chemo to give me some focus). Every now and then something interesting does happen, but usually it will just be whatever.

So thanks for sticking around, guys! It really does mean a lot to me.

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lee buckley

22 Saturday Apr 2017

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For ages this was the only image I ever had of Lee, from her Facebook page… and I came to think of her as this sassy Raggedy Ann chica. Then at long last I had the chance to meet her in person when I was in Madrid last January. She was still quite weak from cancer treatment, but was up for going out to have lunch, and we spent a lovely afternoon together.

Lee said she thought of me as her “cancer sister” because reading about my various struggles with cancer on my blog helped her when she was diagnosed. We could compare notes, as it were, and although our situations were very different, Lee felt like I would at least “get” what she was talking about. And yes, I think I did. I also got to enjoy chat sessions with a bright and funny woman, who loved cats as much as I do. I was also thrilled to meet her beautiful boy Tony during that last visit.

Anyhow, this morning I was out at that gastronomy event by the river and was randomly going through messages while enjoying a beer in the sun. Then I saw a message request on FB from someone I didn’t know. I clicked on it, and it was Lee’s dear friend Chris, telling me as delicately as possible that Lee had passed away a few days ago. And since then I haven’t known what to feel. Because the feelings are all so mixed up, the happy and sad ones, the scary and hopeful ones. And the worst one of all, the one I can’t yet accept – that I won’t ever be able to talk to Lee again. So for now, that’s all I can say. Except… be sure to hug someone you love today, and let them know how much they mean to you, how much you love them.  xx

Lee and I enjoying a fabulous lunch at Tandem in Madrid